Last night was like one of the many nights I've had before. For whatever reason things/people important to me just aren't going as I want them to. I got really sad and disconnected. It felt like an avalanche of hurt piling down on me.
I refuse to let myself get down again. I cannot go back to the way I was. I have been so happy for so long now. I know what's going on . I viewed somethings that have happened recently the way I would have 3 yrs ago and that's not good. I have been so blessed with so much and I need to just focus on that. I need to remember who I am today and what I'm capable of. Things in our lives will at some point or another become tough. Even the good things can wear us down. But you have to decide what's worth fighting for.
I try hard everyday to be the best Christian I can be, but everyday I fall short. I will never stop trying and yet I know that I am destined to fail because of my human nature. The goal is to try. So, I have to shrug off this sadness that paralized me last night. Dig myself out of the avalanche and continue on with God as my strength.
I know that at times I will get hurt. I will feel sad. I will feel like running away before I get hurt, but I can't act on those feelings. As Christains we have to stand in the path of possible heartache and no matter what hang on to our purpose which is to be someone who God is proud of.
Remember who you are. Don't let fear or history get in your way. Stand with God and don't be moved....
Friday, October 9, 2009
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Jillian Michaels
"Fitness to me isn't about a crunch or a push up, it's about taking your power back",
"I believe in blood, sweat and tears",
"Showing you pity, doesn't do you any favors""
"Unless You Puke, Faint or Die, Keep Going!" ~Jillian Michaels
This has to be the meanest, toughest, most fantastic woman I've ever seen! I would love, like the rest of the world, to workout with her. That's what I need. To be pushed beyond what I think I'm possible of doing. I look back at my journey and I've came a long way, but I think I still have a lot further to go. I can do videos at home, run, go to the Y, or whatever, but I want that person who has no pity. Who doesn't care that I'm too tired. That won't except any "I can'ts" from me. I try to push myself especially when I work out at home, but I could do more. Just last night I did the Boot Camp video from Cathe Freidrich, who is another awesome trainer. It's my workout when I need a good kick in the rear b/c it definitely kicks my rear! It is the only video that I can't do exactly what they do. I have to take breaks and modify some of the work out, but I would bet that if Jillian had been here I would have done it all! She is scary, but only because she wants you to be your best!
I have a few things I say that keep me from quitting:
1) Nothing taste as good as being thin feels.
2) Hunger doesn't hurt as bad as having to buy a size bigger.
3) repeat verses over and over like Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me or Isiah 40:31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles, they shall run and not be weary. Especially good during races!
4) and now thanks to Jillian my new favorite is "I HAVE A CHOICE"!
I think I'm creating a new slogan for weight loss and fitness:
WWJMMMD" What would Jillian Michaels make me do?!!!!!
"I believe in blood, sweat and tears",
"Showing you pity, doesn't do you any favors""
"Unless You Puke, Faint or Die, Keep Going!" ~Jillian Michaels
This has to be the meanest, toughest, most fantastic woman I've ever seen! I would love, like the rest of the world, to workout with her. That's what I need. To be pushed beyond what I think I'm possible of doing. I look back at my journey and I've came a long way, but I think I still have a lot further to go. I can do videos at home, run, go to the Y, or whatever, but I want that person who has no pity. Who doesn't care that I'm too tired. That won't except any "I can'ts" from me. I try to push myself especially when I work out at home, but I could do more. Just last night I did the Boot Camp video from Cathe Freidrich, who is another awesome trainer. It's my workout when I need a good kick in the rear b/c it definitely kicks my rear! It is the only video that I can't do exactly what they do. I have to take breaks and modify some of the work out, but I would bet that if Jillian had been here I would have done it all! She is scary, but only because she wants you to be your best!
I have a few things I say that keep me from quitting:
1) Nothing taste as good as being thin feels.
2) Hunger doesn't hurt as bad as having to buy a size bigger.
3) repeat verses over and over like Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me or Isiah 40:31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles, they shall run and not be weary. Especially good during races!
4) and now thanks to Jillian my new favorite is "I HAVE A CHOICE"!
I think I'm creating a new slogan for weight loss and fitness:
WWJMMMD" What would Jillian Michaels make me do?!!!!!
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